I need some sort of outlet. Journaling is awesome but sometimes i don't have the energy to get up, find it and a pencil. And usually the times I need to write the most is when I'm surfing online at night...usually my lowest time of the day. I don't know how blogging works..or the probability someone might read this..i really hope someone does though...I'm listening to Mirador by Efterklang on grooveshark.com. Also, I hope the wefeelfine.org applet picks up one of my entries into it's database someday. To do that I need to write a sentence with the word "I feel" in it....so....here it goes:
I feel tense in my arms ...I feel like I'm avoiding everything i want to be doing..I feel doing these things will end this daily anxiety ..I feel like there's something wrong with me that is beyond my control..and that creates my discomfort. I feel part of that is my sugar addiction..but even when I've been off that for a while...then i don't know. I've never approached "fixing me" as an experiment before now - i even bought a marbled note book today. I don't know why i hesitate so much to do so - probably because I feel like I will fail doing this on my own like I always do. So I just keep on keep'n on with life - ignoring the problem.

I have an intense addiction to sugar - it makes me depressed and I can't concentrate when I take too much of it. When I'm not on it i think about it..